school is just rolling on and im barely keeping up. i have trouble caring remotely even though i know deep down that if i fail, ill never be able to accomplish my dream. i have to move forward, but i feel detached all the time. my body just sits in the class and i feel like im watching the events that happen around me in third person. i know that if i try i can do good, but its so hard and i fall everytime. the apathy is like a grey coating over my vision that makes everything seem pointless. i dont know what to do anymore and i hate to say it but i dont even feel anything about it.