i guess i just felt like sharing this... want to get it out some how. but back when I was in 11th grade (about 6 years ago), i told my parents about my cutting. I actually made myself go 2 weeks without doing it, so when i went and told my mom I could say "i used to have that problem". though right after telling, i started up again. my parents wouldnt let me see a therapist. when they found new cuts, they would ground me to my room, where i was all alone... depressed... would just do it again. i finally found a person to talk to at church and my parents refused to let me talk to him anymore. when my parents and I were watching tv one day, a girl was a cutter on an episode, and her mom had been drinking (it was the episode of Degrassi: TNG where Ellie did it the first time), and my mom looked at me and said "well she's cutting because her moms an alcoholic. what's your excuse?" tonight, i remember her saying that back then, and her voice says it over and over in my head, and it is hurtful and annoying to hear. what was really going on back then was that both my parents were physically and emotionally abusive to me. so that was my excuse, but they denied it and say i deserved it. so it angers me in a way, that my mom would say "whats your excuse?" when i had so many excuses she didnt ever realize...