I used to have a tight group of friends. The four of us were inseparable. Almost every day/night we would be together doing something crazy or nothing at all. No matter what was going on we were always just happy to be with each other. One by one, though, the group began to fall apart. One got married, one I had to stop all communication with because of his obsession over me (it got really bad really fast and it was destroying my romantic relationship), and the last one to leave...my very best friend in the world. She turned her back on me so quickly that I didn't even see it happening. We went to college and were roommates for two semesters (we had been friends throughout high school), but as soon as summer came, I never saw her again. This friendship was not just a normal one. We were like sisters. We shared our lives in such a close way that I felt that she was a part of me. When I tried to talk to her she would either not respond, tell me she didn't mean to be distant and we would hang out soon, or tell me she was depressed and didn't want to talk.

What I don't understand is, she talks to EVERYONE ELSE except me. If the problem was depression, why was it focused on me when I hadn't done anything at all? I was so confused and tried many times to get her to explain what had happened to make her abandon our friendship. I never got an answer. That all happened about 6 months ago. Ever since then, I haven't built any new friendships. I yearn every day to have her back in my life and to have that tight group of friends that we shared. Those were the best times in my life. I feel like I'll never have another friend like that. It's wearing me down lately and I don't know what to do. I'm clinging to my significant other like he's the last person on earth because I have NO ONE ELSE. It's tearing us apart because I'm suffocating him. I don't know why I can't make friends and why I can't revive what I've lost...