I personally think that you need to commit yourself to treatment. If a doctor gives you anti-depressants, unless you're having bad side effects, stick with it and give it enough time to work. (Remember they take 4-6 weeks before they generally have any effect)

I also think you should look into therapy. It seems like you've had problems with this for a long time and they may give you the skills to help manage these feelings. Don't be afraid! Help is scary, takes time, but the outcomes can become worthwhile.

Best of luck to you, happycheeks.<33333
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