it's funny when you know that you want something, when you ask for it and ask for it and ask for it and then when it happens it's scary as hell...my husband seems to be accepting that we are splitting up...he told me last night that he is going to look for an apartment and that when he moves (which will hopefully be by the end of the month...cross my fingers) I can put the house up for sale...I've felt deep down that ending this relationship was the right thing to do for so long and I feel such a sense of relief that soon he will be out of my life (at least in a day to day sense) but I'm scared. I've never been on my own...we've been together since I was 17....I've never had to manage on my own financially and while I make a decent salary, he's leaving me with ALL of the bills...mortgage, car payment, credits cards, EVERYTHING...I could push the issue but then he'll just be here longer (he's not giving me any money for bills now because he's saving money to move) and I'd rather throw a couple late payments on my credit report than drag this out longer than neccesary...very scary though knowing that I must now manage on one income what we were managing on two...I guess it shouldn't take too long to sell the house and then I'll have some money in savings as a cushion...still...very scary and the longer he takes now to find a place the longer I will be financially strapped (once we sell the house I'm going to pay off my way too expensve car so that I don;t have a huge car payment) so now I'm at his mercy AND housing him for nothing in the meantime...somehow I always get the short end of the stick in this relationship...thank GOD it's almost over...