@setemfree yeah, I tried to go for the chatroom before making a post here. I'm trying to get to five posts so I can participate.

Yep, every month I meet with a CT (credentialed teacher) and give him samples of my work to turn into the state, to prove that I am meeting state standards and we're not trying to scam the system. I can't take a leave of absence without failing, and I really don't want to repeat the year. It would absolutely destroy me.

I have both my parents, my grandmother (to a certain extent), and I have friends that I can talk to. I trust them, it's just that I don't want to worry them, or burden them with my problems. It's such a relief to come here and say what's honestly on my mind, and I think that's what I need most right now.