I don't want to be off meds. I just wish there was a way of figuring out EXACTLY what meds I need!!! It's been a year since my diagnosis and I haven't settled yet (although I know that for some people it takes much more than that even to be diagnosed)...And even after settling, there is every chance they'll need tweaking and/or change!

So I wish I didn't have to develop such an insight and such in-depth knowledge to how my chemistry works. (Because now I am convinced that I'm the only one who will ever get the closest to 'knowing' then ins and outs of my condition....And that scares me.)
But I am grateful for the progress that has been made