Things are going better, as far as the SI goes. I havent cut in months, and have made a goal for myself to go the whole year of 2011 without SI'ing. My reward is a tattoo on my left inner arm where I did most of my cutting. It will be of a nautical star, filled in with orange (the color of the SI awareness ribbon) and the word "survivor" written next to it. i hope it will serve as a reminder for me of how strong I've been this year.