Welcome to the Community, simplydifficult. My thought is for you to talk to your general practitioner to see if she/he has any suggestions. If you do have bipolar you might benefit from medications. Your doctor might be able to help you, or even refer you to professionals for an evaluation and any treatment that is indicated.

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You might also call the county social services or state health department to find out if you might qualify for assistance. Explain your circumstances and see what is available. Your may qualify for some health services, job training or education assistance. Who know?

Good luck.