Thanks,

That's it! The connected feeling in therapy feels so good that nothing can compare. It sets me up to want it more in RL but therapy is BETTER. It doesn't seem fair!! Sometimes I feel that way with my friends, but not my H. I feel that way when I'm writing or drawing, or seeing beautiful scenery, and posting on PC. Is that enough? It's still so much better with my T even when it just feels NORMAL, like yesterday.

I want to have a tantrum about this!!!! It's not FAIR!! Why is it this way? Therapy is a tease, I think. But it's a real relationship, my T says. I need to discuss this again and again. I know a lot of you relate. What do we do about it? Maybe I need to discuss the other issues in therapy instead, which I'm in the middle of of--grieving for my Mom and the shame issues, but wanting to be "in love" and feel connected is almost more important. I'm frustrated with it all. Therapy is so slow, and I don't know what to do.