Thank you Jadedmoonbeam for your concern.
Actually I thought the 'No Contact Contract' was one I make with myself. I agree that including him in the contract would give him more opportunities to abuse me. So I don't plan on doing that.
This is such a difficult predicament I'm in since he is the father of my child. Still I feel strongly about her knowing him. He is so crafty in creating doubt in myself as a good mother. I really shouldn't listen to his verbal attacks. Yet he is able to lure me into thinking I'm causing our child harm by not allowing him to see her. According to him in order for me to mend this father-child relationship I must move to California. Ok.......so he expects me to leave my entire support system and move my 3 month old across the country to live alone. If we were going to be together and he wasn't so abusive I would. But if I go there the way things are now, he'll rub his new gf in my face and make my life miserable. It is beyond my understanding that he is able to justify leaving ALL his kids behind - expecting me to follow him. His justification for leaving was to finish his degree where he already had credits. It would take him an extra year or so if he finished here in Illinois. In my opinion that was just another excuse for going back home to his parents.
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