Eskie ,

I wanted to reply in proper...and yesterday I was too caught in more new despair to focus on this.But I didn't break yesterday.I was very strong and dealt with the new pain very adult-like.I didn't over-react.I did good.

Emotional self...generally takes the driver seat after the repression of issues which arise ...where I dealt with it in a self-less way until ...I end up in a whirlwind of residual suppressed pain which then explodes.My bad.If I didn't do that ...I'd not have these episodes.But it is much more complicated to avoid occurring than presently I find me able to navigate.

Your words comforted me...because before I read that...I was so self-berating...I should have been charged with assault & battery of the self...lol.

I agree...reflection is a very constructive action.Thank you for encouraging me.All I have is p.c I would be in the ground perhaps without it...lol...sometimes I think I will be in the ground for it....ugh....

Again...thank you very much for the comfort and encouragement of your words.Please don't think I mean that lightly....I do not.

Genuinely,Wolf