I feel like i'm drowning right now. There's too much stuff happening, too much negativity, too much money flowing out, not enough money flowing in.... I just want to crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head.

My bf and I have been together 9 months, never had an argument, always see things "eye to eye", have the same goals, and are happiest when we're together. Only seems fitting that we should decide to move in together, yes? Well, that decision prompted my apartment roommate to turn nasty, and disappear when I was at bf's house, leaving me with ALL the expenses for our last month in the apartment. In addition, she owes me over $9000 for expenses she hadn't paid previously, plus 2 airplane tickets to go to Lebanon to see her bf, plus a personal loan I made to her a year ago. Yes, yes, i know... don't lend money to a friend. Lesson learned.

We found a great house for our needs. Big enough for us, bf's daughter and a friend of ours who wanted to rent one of the bedrooms. We actually had started moving things in, after putting down nearly $2000 in deposits when we found out we can't live there. The city recently passed an ordinance prohibiting work from home businesses, and ours is. We can't afford rent on a house and an office right now. So we can't move in. And we can't get any of our deposit money back. AND we have to pay rent until they re-rent the house.

So, we're staying with bf's mom right now. She is a lovely and gracious woman for allowing us to invade her the way we have. But it's becoming claustrophobic. There's Mom, bf, bf's dd, me, our 2 cats and Mom's dog in a small 2 bedroom duplex.

The icing on the cake is bf's dd. I call her my stepdd b/c she calls me mom. On the surface the relationship looks great!! But I don't trust her, I don't believe most of what she says, she's passive aggressive towards me, she tries to play bf and I against each other.... and she smokes mj, and has mental illness issues which I believe have been misdiagnosed. She's 18, but with the mentality of a 13 year old. She doesn't do a thing unless she's directly instructed to do so. She is constantly in our back pocket. We can't go anywhere or do anything without her. And she intrudes constantly into our private space and time.

I love bf. No doubts. But I don't know how long I can deal with his dd. Let me add that he doesn't trust her or believe her either. I'm not alone in this, but it makes for a crazy stressful situation.

With ALL the stuff going on..... idk. I just don't know what to do, where to turn, how to cope.