Well, you're definitely in the right forum! Black-white thinking. Borderline.

Are you in therapy? If not, you should start. You need to re-train your brain to think differently.

But for the immediate time, every time you find yourself thinking something negative about him or his love for you or the relationship - step back, take a deep breath, and analyze the situation. So he's hanging out with friends. Does that mean he doesn't love you? NO! It means he's hanging out with friends. That's it. Every person should be allowed some time to spend on their own, not with their spouse/significant other. It's a good thing. If you spent 24 hours a day 7 days a week with him, he would get on your nerves after a while!

It's hard, because the way you think is black & white. Either he's completely in love with you and you're in love with him - or you're going to break up. There's no in-between. I know - I'm exactly the same way. One moment I'm planning our 50th wedding anniversary and dreaming about grandkids (our daughter is 5!) - and the next moment I'm planning how I'll pack up my stuff when we divorce, and even planning out the custody arrangements! It's insane.