Could you start looking for a new therapist? Sometimes getting busy with that can take your mind off it, and help you to feel like you're still making progress.

I need to do this also. Today is kind of a crap day because I don't have therapy! (My own choice, but it still sucks)

I'm going to try to find a new T who is willing to chat with me about what went wrong with the old one. I've had CBT Ts tell me they don't want to do this - that they're all about forward progress. I think there's also a vanity component in that response - the new guy is symbolically d*ck swinging with the specter of the former T. (sigh)

Maybe tell any prospective new T that you'd like to work on the relationship you had with your previous T. Their reaction will be revealing. A good therapist won't be thrown by this. You're supposed to be able to talk about whatever you want to, after all! And I think it would help you. Just my two cents!