Yes it is hard. I've already reached my record. 9 Months was the last record and here I am fighting it every day trying to make it just one more hour, just one more day and if I get lucky my new record will be 10 months which will be on January 18th. I know that I will feel SSSOO much better to get that release. Sometimes I want it so bad that all I can do is hop on my bike and pedal as fast as I can down that bike path behind this appartment. I had to have been a comical site today pedaling and singing out loud the songs playing on my walkman. When my legs couldnt pedal no more I came home and took a long bath, walked to the store and bought some groceries and some chocolate for treating myself for the fact that I didn't give in, came home and rented a movie on cable and ate my dinner and chocolate. hang in there. Im going to try too.
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