I've never brought up a guy not talking to me before. Or even my friends.

And its not so much that I feel myself tempted to have anything more than a friendship at this point, I just feel uneasy talking to him now because I know my boyfriend is uncomfortable with me talking to other guys. Especially those that like me or that I have showed interest in in the past. Which I understand...so I feel awkward about it. But I don't want to dismiss guys who have been my friends for years.

Why do I feel drawn to being emotionally "intimate" (I don't know if I would call talking about the basics of depression is considered intimate - I mean we're not flirting.) with people other than my boyfriend? Because my boyfriend doesn't want to discuss my depression or the events in my life that happen with it like counselling appointments. Either he dismisses the idea entirely that I am depressed or he patronizes my theories if I bring up ideas of what brought me here. Which I understand he is uncomfortable with, so I talk to other people.