Kayle, i am really glad that you came here to ask for support. we may not have all of the answers that you're looking for, but we have love and support for you.

i'd vote first for seeing a therapist. check around and find one and make an appt. you need someone in real life to talk to about your difficulties. if your boyfriend is interested, couples counseling might be appropriate. it sounds as if you're drifting apart and counseling together could help you find out what the problems are.

family? ignore them. i know that's harsh, but right now i'd like to see you work on yourself and i imagine that will take care of the other stuff. you can't fix family. and you will never be able to keep them from interfering. BUT, you can fix how you respond to it and how you feel about yourself.

xoxox pat