Thanks songbird. I should listen to you and not discount the little successes and progress I've made. Thanks for listening to me.

Crew my T wants to believe I'm DID but he's also hinting it could be more schizophrenia. I did a little research on schizo and I do fit in with that too. But I fit DID more with my reported behaviors and amnesia of events. This week I'm logging everything I do and there's certain time periods each day I can't tell you what I did, or I write something I don't remember writing and the handwriting is different. I feel so confused. Right now because of where I live, I'm extremely limited on who I can see. Our town only has one T and he travels from the state capital twice a month to see us and others in our area who need counseling. He has limited trauma experience. He has limited experience all around but he's a good listener and gives practical suggestions for everyday issues very well. We stopped doing trauma work with him because it got overwhelming for us, but I'd like to start up again. . .just very afraid and uncertain.