Sorry - I was thinking of another post....maybe I read too much at once on here haha

I still feel that no matter where the need comes from (you needing it or your boyfriend being unwilling to walk) it's not a good thing that you can't be open with someone so close to you about something so personal. I remember you asking in a poll why he wouldn't talk to you about it and you did get your answer as to why he is uncomfortable with it but if he isn't willing to try to be open, therein lies the issue. He needs to be able to at least try.

Talking about the basics is one thing but, feeling close to another man means opening up about more things, then feeling closer etc....

IMO, if you're asking if it's wrong, there is a reason. If he is getting jealous over nothing and making you feel you are in the wrong when you're not.....there is a problem. If you feel like you are close to having an emotional affair, then there is another issue. Either way, something needs to be worked out. If he doesn't learn to talk and open up.....he will drive you away. And getting jealous (if there isn't really a reason) will do the same.

I have plenty of guy friends and my bf has plenty of girl friends. But the reason we are not jealous is that we can open up and talk about things like depression or anxiety.

It shouldn't take you having an emotional breakdown for him to support you in this. Depression really is a journey and he seems to not be willing to go on that journey with you. But if you are committed to him, then I would try to get HIM to open up instead of finding other guys to do that with. And if that's not possible, then I'd re-think my position in the relationship and whether it is worth it to be with someone who is emotionally unavailable in the area you need it most.