I'm not seeing a therapist right now. I would love to join a basketball league but I am way to afraid to. I get so nervous around people, I am afraid of what they think of me and how they are always judging me. I know you said they do it less then I think, but I can't convince myself to believe it.

If I play basketball with people, I will get so nervous that I play terribly and make stupid mistakes. I am afraid I will miss an easy lay-up or turn it over. Many times I will tell myself, as long as you hit the rim it will be alright. I would plan on failure. It all makes me feel so sad and worthless. Nearly everything I do I am fearful I will be judged badly, even something as little as blowing my nose. I can't even do things that I am good at because I have so much anxiety.

I can't describe how frustrating it is to just sit around and do nothing all day. The only thing that really subsides this anxiety is gaming and surfing the internet for hours on end. I can let my mind go and just mess around.