When I recently revealed I was SA by someone in the family who's very manipulative, my sister was very insensitive about it. Infact, she tortured me further. The SA threatened to do a court case on me, and my sister came to me asking me why I hadn't revealed this when It was happening (For the 20th time that she asked me this when I'd had answered this before) and when I said I didn't want to discuss this anymore, she said Well what will you do when he does a court case on you? You have to be prepared, the lawyers will ask you this. I'm just helping you.

That time I fell into her web. When I got out of it, I felt like crap and thats when I realized she'd just manipulated me once again.

Especially since she was the first one i told 4 years back and her response was "dont tell anyone, they wont believe you". So i didnt, Back then. She had also told me, "oh, he tried to do that with me too but I was smart I didn't fall for it."

4 years passed and this year I finally had to just tell my parents so I did. That's when she pretended to help my by portraying herself as a lawyer.

I am VERY angry around this situation. I try to keep my mind away from it, but it creeps back up. When it creeps back up, I get stuck in this cycle where one event leads to another, in a cycle, I think of all the past situations when she manipulated me and I didn't know, when she hurt my feelings (which was all through childhood- she would get my SA to hurt me further by complaining to him about me all the time- she'd pretend to be supersweet in front of my parents but a ***** behind their back, portraying me as the troubled child when I'd get hurt).

Sometimes, I feel I'm carry this heavy baggage in my heart. I have too many trigger points, a lot of times I try to just cope and I do okay but sometimes I lose control. Then I'm down for days stuck in the past.

How do I deal with all this? Is this all pent up anger/repressed anger or pain??

I try to stay in the present, but the past constantly creeps back up?

Please help!!