I am touched to have received the caring replies posted above so soon after my posting my first sharing of my situation. Thank you very much, all of you. I value each reply that I have received. I'm confused about how (or if it's possible) to reply to replies.

To: Avid Reader - yes, I'm on meds. I take clonazepam as an anxiolytic, but am not too impressed with it. (Seems to work better as a sleep inducer.) I have never taken Xanax and I have heard of it being very addicting and wicked to get off of. But, like you, I go into "tailspins" and would like to nip those early if I could. Xanax might be worth trying. Also, I take Nortriptyline (a TCA) for depression, and that is helpful. Thanks for sharing what has worked for you.

To: Jarebear - Thank you for your very kind encouragement and empathy.

To: Madisgram - yes, I saw my therapist last week, and I will see my Psychiatrist in 2 days. I fought fear today with some success - left the house twice.

To: Patriciann - Today, I had a meeting with a Job Developer at my state's Division of Vocational Rehab. I feel encouraged that she can help me. I'm sorry for the loss of your husband. The person who is my closest support is in declining health and I worry daily about how I will cope if I lose him.

Thank you all. I never expected to receive such kind expressions of support.