Yesterday, my childhood friend asked me if I would have sex with him. We're not going out, I never thought of him this way, and we're 15. I was so shocked, and it didn't help that he had freaked me out for over a half an hour by acting in a manner that was most unlike him.. But I was really terrified at the thought - I started trembling and I burst into tears.. It was as if he had threatened my life.

Of course I told him no, and I stopped talking to him.. But for most kids my age this type of situation seems to be an everyday thing, oh it's just sex.. I have a friend who I know if I told him, he would have told me to just go for it because it's really not that big of a deal.. But for me.. it made me cry. I don't know why.. I don't know how to explain how it made me feel really or why I reacted that way.. Anyone else I'm sure would have gotten mad.. I don't understand why it terrifies me so or why I have to be so unlike everybody else..