Thank you Carolyne and welcome.
I'm still in a 'stable' mood, in that I haven't fallen into depression. But I'm exhausted beyond belief. On second thoughts; maybe it is depression. Just not as bad as I've been. But emotionally I am done for.
I just don't care any more. I'm lashing out at people, when all I really want is a hug and comfort. Why is this so elusive? Why can I not just get on with it and see the positive?