The problem is, there ARE not other jobs around me. I live in a really little town, like one stop light little. There's maybe 4 places to apply at. And I don't have a vehicle to where I could go further away to get another job.
I have an appt with a therapist on the 19th of April. It seems like a million years away. I just want to go back to bed and stay there with the blankets pulled over my head until then. I AM trying. I get up in the morning, I function, and I go to work faithfully everyday that I'm scheduled. I have really good work ethics. In the past 5 months, I've had two jobs that I only called off once on.

It's just getting a tad bit harder to get up in the morning. It's getting a little harder to keep the smile on my face.