Hi,

Im new here to this site, and new to this family of DID. I dont know all too much about this dissorder, but I do know what Ive been feeling and going through, and the hell its been.

I have friends that I hurt sometimes because of this switching stuff, I do things and say things I dont mean, and have no control over it, and I know thats no escuse to treat people with dissrespect, and not sure if thats what Im even doing, I guess I really dont know what Im doing, just know somethings not right. People I know, and (afraid to say some I didnt know that I knew them,) tell me I would have a conversation with them, and that I was very depressed and suicidal, and I dont remember a thing of it. 'Dont remember a thing of it" "YIKES!!!' Thats what goes on, I am so confused, and scared, and I feel like Im crazy, I mean I feel sometimes these switches comming on and other times I dont. When I feel them, I try to hide in a corner and hope noone sees me, but dont always have that opportunity available to me. I thought I was all alone with this, that noone understood what was going on inside of me, that the voices mean Im crazy, these alters tell me Im insane, in my own opinion, not actually telling me that. I feel like I must be crazy, I must be insane in every way.

I am relived to find for the first time that thier are others suffering in many of the same ways that I am, and its a relief to me.

For the first time in my life, I can say I think I have found where I belong, and I want to thank all you kind, caring, and compassionaite people for your support that you give to eachother, and I look forward to getting to know some of you, and I hope to be a support in the best way I know too as well.

I do thank you for your time in reading this thread, and do apologize for any confussion I may have caused. Im stll learning, and would appreciate any thoughts, insights, shared experiences, anything you wish to open your heart too. Thank you very much again for reading this, I do hope I have not been to long.

Thank you again;
Sincerly a new lost soul----TheMisfitamongstmisfits

ps-but you can call me Jodi