That's true. I just don't want to disappoint her, or worry her, or have her think something is seriously wrong with me or something. Plus, the fact that this stuff gets written on your chart and is there for eternity...it just means its written somewhere that I can't hide, and isn't available to only me. I don't know how I feel about that.

I don't trust anyone enough to tell them. I probably won't ever trust anyone enough. It's okay though, I'm learning to deal with it on my own and while it's harder it's helping me to learn to be self-sufficent. Or it's closing me off from people who want to help. Either/or.