Well my dear, I see that under your pain and discomfort, you are VERY proud of who you are. There is strength in that. I can relate to you on that and on what it feels like to pick up a fork. I lost a lot of weight quickly, I feel it important not to say how on this forum board. Society does placate this image of womanhood and has caused many people heart ache over it. I fell victem to it as well. I first viewed it as a way to be more attractive and healthy. It grew from there into an obsesion to the point of becoming unhealthy. I began loosing hair my teeth wiggled in my mouth... If you are not to this point turn around now it only compounds the focus you have on your self. I woke up one day and saw the wreakage I was creating inturnally and externally and decided to change it. Much like you are doing now by posting here. It is not easy to untrain your self of habit that you have built but you can do it. Start looking into eating healty as an alternative... Reasearch what really is healthy for you find out how many calories you body needs at it's target ratio. This keeps your mind focused on the same things but dirrects it to possitive results instead of detramental ones. Start focusing your attention on possitive aspects of your personallity, gain insights from them and apply them to all areas of your life. IMPORTANT: If others want you to be something ask your self this question. Who am I changing my life for, and is it a healty change? I hope this helps, we all approach life from many different angles. I just wanted to say that you are not the only one that has ever faced this and you are not stuck. I made it out, you can too.

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