I think by ingesting some of what you wrote down. I think the foundation that you are reaching for is infront of you. You have set out a road map before your self already...
Very few of us get out of bed and plant both feet right away. One foot after the other is the aproach most take. If you approach your goal set the same way then life will begin to blossom for you. What you allow to become important to you is important. What and who you allow to alter your mood is a moote point. We are the epicenter of our selves. Choose to represent your self how you want to be seen. Learn to accept your strengths and weaknesses, no one is perfect. I use to have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. The alarm clock would go off and I would lay there poss. get up poss. go back to sleep. I told myself enough. Now when the alarm goes off I spring out of bed ready or not. One obsticle down on to the next. What was that line from Mortal Combat... Choose Your Destiny. I do not know if I am on point here for you or not, but I read you post and thought I would try and make contact.
I hope this helps.

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