Get an appointment with a therapist that does DBT for AFTER your gastric bypass, so they don't worry about the psych eval. You can not treat yourself for this, no matter how well you are doing as a psych major.

But that said.....I have the same problems. I'm Borderline, and Bipolar (diagnosed in 2008) but I don't really get the anger and rage like some Borderlines, yet I do definitely have the black/white thinking, fear of abandonment, self-destructive behaviors...etc.

Whenever I screw up, I actually am the one to blame it on my illness. Like it's a cop-out. Like, well, I didn't really do it, my messed-up brain did it. Of course this annoys my husband. He's fed up with my spending and obsession about losing weight while I binge out of control.

Yet all too often, he doesn't admit to his own mistakes. It's like I'm the only one doing anything wrong in the marriage, because I'm the crazy one. He has no sex drive, and refuses to figure out or tell me why. Yes, it is a big deal. Maybe it shouldn't be. It would be one thing if I knew that he was actually incapable of it, but to wonder for 9 out of 11 years why he doesn't want me sure does wonders for my self-esteem. A big source of my depression is feeling unwanted and unloved.

The other day I tried to kiss him, and he pulled away. Gave me some lame excuse why I wouldn't want to kiss him. I said "why do I have to work so hard to get a kiss?" Then later that evening, he dropped a Hershey's chocolate kiss on the floor, and I reached for it. He blocked my way so I couldn't get it, and I said again "why do I have to work so hard to get a kiss?" He just laughed. He thinks it's a joke.

I know I'm crazy, but I still need him to express his love for me. Just because I've made a lot of mistakes doesn't give him the right to pretend he's done nothing wrong.