You are definately worthy.....I think happiness comes and goes...I don't think its always present because when we are not happy, we remember the feeling and want it back!!! We change, life changes, and no one can always be that happy.....I guess those beautiful moments of happiness should be cherished and enjoyed. We take so much for granted! Sometimes we don't feel well..etc...life happens......I want to be happy all the time, but I think its unrealistic for me. Maybe serene, content, quiet. I will take all those emotions too......and then there is grief.......people die, jobs end, pets die........I know grief, and I know happiness because I have felt it all..Thats why I know what happiness is...because of the other emotions I have felt. So when true happiness comes, I know it, and embrace it because I know its fleeting.

You are alright....the other feelings are part of life.....and because we have an illness, we feel we should be happier more...but it is what it is......cherish the happy moments...go with the flow....

thinking of you today!