Girls, thanks!!!
I haven't had such a support in a long time.
My husband and I had a conversation this morning. I ask him a simple question: Do you love me?". He said it was not that simple, but one thing he knows for sure - he does not have any affection towards me. I sucked iy out of him with my behavior. But I say stupid stuff, and act badly only when he pushes me away. I don't think he is capable of loving anyone. I just don't know.... I can't leave him. I love him! May be a good idea would be to cut him off emotianaly for awile. They say taht gyus like women who are hard to get. I used to be like that, proud, calm, happy. I have to find ME.

With love to all.