This weekend is the big AA/Al-anon provincial conference. I decided to go to it this year, because they always have great speakers, and there's a big group going from my home group. So I'm sort of looking forward to it except 1. it's making my social anxiety really flare up, 2. there's going to be tons of people who I know from around TO that I'll run into and they'll want to get caught up on how I'm doing, and I really don't want to share that I'm unemployed and back in rehab as it's not exactly a self esteem boosting place to be, and 3. I'm positively dreading running into an old family friend L who is a 12 step junkie. She flat out told me the last time we talked that if I didn't find God, I'd never get sober, which just pushed all the wrong buttons for me. She wanted to have coffee with me, but I brushed her off with a really lame excuse, that I wasn't sure what my schedule looked like, as I was hanging out with a group of women from my home group. And now I feel guilty about that.

Blech - why did she have to decided to totally immerse herself in Alanon, she doesn't even have any alcoholics in her family. I'm going to be stressed the whole weekend about running into her.

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