I've always been so good about my credit this kills me but the fact of it is once I pay the mortgage, car & utilities and it's toss up between the cc's and food...food wins I might look for a job paying a little more...I'm pretty confident I could get more than I'm making now I just really haven't had any incentive to make a move. He's kind of having the attitude..."take what you asked for...see how well you'll do without me" and thats fine...I'll be fine I just need to reorganize...he won't sell the house until he's found another place because he really has no where else to go (his parents told him he is not welcome there) anyway...thanks everyone for caring...I'm constantly stressing about finances and I don't want to let money determine my course of action here and it's just scary for me taking this financial "leap of faith"