Welcome to PC. So glad that you found us, Rose. I've struggled with depression and anxiety throughout my life. I've had job and relationship failures as a result, and am single and on disability, which is hard. I really understand the struggles and feelings you described. I've done better at times, but am currently in one of the worst bouts I've had. I'm sure that you'll find a lot of support from the many wonderful people here at PC. There's a lot of heart here.