Oh my God Wepow! I LOVE THIS! At first I was like "huh?" but I the more I thought about it, I think sometimes for trauma victims, the opposite of being scared of someone is feeling loved by them. Maybe that's where we was going with replacing the word "scared" with "loved"?

I"m sorry you had that horrible scary encounter in the stairwell...I can understand why you would be mad at T. I get mad at T for no good reason sometimes. I just get a feeling or he says something triggering and it sets me off. I immediatly go to the "I-hate-T-and-I'm-never-going-back" place.

I'm sorry you are having an "off" week too, try to accept the strange-ness and know that it will pass. You don't have to try to name it, just know its there and it means something that you will learn when it's time.

Thinking of you and sending you many hugs