((((yack)))) it IS difficult! Do your best, stay in therapy... work work work on retraining the brain... I know it isn't "logical" that if we can think of what is the problem and if we know that we don't want to feel that way etc. etc. etc.. then we shouldbe able to fix it or get over it NOW. But it doesn't work that way. It just doesn't.

IMO, One of the best things you can do for yourself is to tell yourself that this is the disorder.. .these feelings are the disorder... you're thinking and feeling and reacting because it's the disorder that causes it... and you are doing the best you (or anyone) can do and are going to get through this, eventually.