I find myself feel exceptionally lonely tonight. I was feeling good before, pretty happy about a job interview well done and watching geeky St. Patty's ghost promos but now I just feel detached. I want to talk to my boyfriend about it and try to fill the void, but tonight he is glued to his computer game (as I found out when he asked me to do a Tarot reading for him and then wouldn't leave the couch or pay attention to the proceedings). He occasionally asks what's wrong but I feel like if I explain to him how I feel he'll just think I'm being whiny or something. Maybe I am, but I can't help feeling lonely, sad and sort of hollow.

I miss my friends and family. We moved 2 hrs away from them originally for school but now that I'm not attending school I just feel restless. Yet I don't want to move back now because I'm looking into taking Animal Care next winter. I feel like I have no real support out here, yeah my bf should be my support but I feel like being my only support is draining on him. Is it strange that I feel that I always have to be busy interacting with people or visiting to feel like this void is filled? Or maybe I'm just distracting myself from it. Who knows.

Questions arise in my mind like: why am I here? Am I even really here? Is this relationship going to last if we continue this lifestyle of sitting in the same room on laptops but not really spending time together? I feel like I am missing something in my life.

Fortunately my kitty, Tsuki seems to sense something's up and has taken residence up on my chest making it tricky to type. Partially because she keeps pawing at the touchpad of the mouse.