As her daughter, you have the right to try to talk to her about it without worrying about an agenda. I mean that you can say "I love you and want you in my life" without it meaning that you want to live with her. You can tell her you're happy where you are living now if that's how you feel.
It's great that you care about how your mom feels, but she's the adult. You're not responsible for protecting her. If she is sad that you feel that way, she can deal with that on her own. You don't have to feel guilty for wanting what you want.
You can also choose to forgive her in your heart but try not see her very much if it's too hard for you right now. You can forgive her and never see her again. If you do that, you have nothing to feel guilty about. It's okay for you to take care of yourself.
This must be a really hard time. I am sending you safe hugs and positive thoughts.
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