I don't exactly know what's going on but I think I figured out something about myself today and was wondering if anyone has had a similar discovery or experience.

I freeze a lot - just stand still, can't move get overwhelmed. I've been waiting for the sun to come out all winter long and today it's amazing out. I took a walk outside to go to the post office, I did homework. But as the day progressed I got more and more nervous. I responded by letting myself relax - I opened the windows, watched a TV show I like, surfed the net, ate some food, drank some tea. But it still got worse and worse. By the height of this, I recognized a lot of anxiety type symptoms - was more aware of my breathing/breathing started to change, felt like running, thoughts were racing a bit. And I was just SCARED for no reason.

The whole time I was trying desperately not to go to my room because when I'm depressed (major depressive disorder) that's all I can do and I've learned its not always the best place to be. But TODAY, I think it might be what I needed.

I think a major cause of this other than normal stress was a type of sensory overload. It's like, all these weather changes, all the people out on the street walking, the new smells, so MUCH light when I'm used to darkness constantly, policmen, just SO MANY PEOPLE OUT, even right outside my window.... all these things are too much for me to process right now, so my room allows me to relax because it's darker and I can close things out of it.

I don't know how this relates to either people with depression or anxiety, or anything else for that matter. Anyone ever had something similar? If so how do you deal with the issues that come from this?

My current plan is to sit in my room till I calm down to the point of at least being able to breath 100% normally, and venture out as I'm able...
thanks in advance for any thoughts everyone


ps - if anyone knows a better forum for this to be in let me know, I just don't have a very good idea of what's going on