I been suffering from depression for 10+ years more like 13 years.
I have been on medication for quite sometime; but recently my emotions feel out of control. To the point I feel out of touch with the world around me. I do my best not to focus on the negative parts of my life but sometimes I lose my focus. I actually consider myself a very strong person, I have been a single Mom most of my adult life and my son is now 20. I have been separated for almost 2 years now.... 1 year into being separated I had a relationship to someone who I was very close to- but he decided to try to work things out with his ex-wife. Friends that him and I were both close to I don't see or talk to anymore. I guess you could say I feel like I have lost any support I have. It bottles up inside me until I breakdown and cry. I saw the Doctor who increased my meds to the maximum dosage in hopes that this will help me. I just have a lot going on right now in my brain that I find myself not being able to stay focused on most tasks and find my mind drifting all over the place. With all that is going on in my Life I am concerned because I have lost the will to want to get anything done. I have lost 20 lbs because most of the time I don't eat, I wake up in the middle of the night(feeling restless), not sure who else to turn to. I feel very alone and feel like I have used up all my coping skills and feel fearful of my emotions. Any replies I am hoping will be helpful and thank you in advance foryour support.