I just wish this whole thing was just over already...I'm so impatient I can't believe how much money I have to give the lawyer just to file...my husband says he's not even getting a lawyer unless I "try to do something" which I won't so he's getting out of even that bill...I feel like I'm completely at his mercy until I have the money to file (which I should actually be getting soon hopefully...I had to take out a loan of all things...argghhh just what I need...I certainly can't afford to move and pay half the mortgage and I wouldn't not pay half of the bills because I don't trust that he would pay them all (or that he even could as he only works part time) Stuck between a rock and a hard place plus he doesn't want me moving my son to my parents house anyway so me moving out is not even an option really ...everywhere I turn is either a waiting game or a fight...which given his behavior will quickly get ugly...I'm so tired of walking on thin ice biding time for this man...luckily he's all of the sudden acquired a social life since we definitely decided to split so he's not home that much right now...