(((((((((( constantdreamer ))))))))))

i am so sorry things are so difficult right now...relationships are so hard to keep going, especially when you are in emotional hardship yourself...and especially when one of you works so much to pay off debt...yes, what he did sounds noble...but it makes me think he might have some difficulty in setting good boundaries himself and just felt like he had gotten in over his head...I'm not saying you are high maintenance...but with your emotional state he might not have had enough reserve to do you justice...

try to keep in mind that you are worth the time and effort...and you are NOT bad, nor are you the things that you had happen to you in your childhood. You are MORE than all of that. You deserve to be loved, cared for, looked after...you deserve it, not because you didn't get it when you were young, but because you are a human being and deserve it just like all the rest of us deserve it.

please don't stop coming here and talking about what you need...we may not be able to give real hugs, but we can show you that we do give you hugs, and can tell you that we care...and we can listen and tell you what we think...ultimately it is up to you to do what you need to do to keep YOU safe...and if we can help in any way, let us know...we would love to get to know you more...

Jewels