back again....thank you for your comments...yeah, I had actually considered the possibility of BP2, I took the quiz on this website and it indicated that I could either have that or a mild depression. I always assumed depression and so did anyone I've seen b/c I had all the symptoms for it. I don't seem to have any of the symptoms for mania or even hypomania though. But what I have heard is athat BP disorder can present itself atypically via self-harm, eating disorders, etc before it settles into a more orthodox pattern. I've heard that mood stabilizers can have some pretty bad side effects though?

No, my depression isn't at the hospitalization point, I'm actually able to function perfectly fine, I'm a straight-A student, a competitive athlete, have plently going for me, so it doesn't seem fair that I managed to end up feeling like my head is about to explode. Am off to see my counsellor next week before I move...I had to get a top-up of my anti-d's yesterday and the dr decided to increase the dose slightly and I should try to see the counsellor before I go...think I will try to get some ongoing therapy once I move though...I'd really like to get to the bottom of this!!