I tend to be SO self-judgmental...and even more so when I'm in a bad spot in general (triggered, lack of sleep, things like that).

I am practicing literally just having compassion for however I am. In fact, my little mantra lately has been "I'm not okay and that's okay". Or I guess it could be "My feelings aren't okay and that's okay". I know T doesn't love that...because he would like me to see me how he sees me, but I'm not there.

Somehow, there is some peace in just learning to accept myself in my "not-okayness". I'm not even sure if that makes sense, but it feels like a first, baby step for me. And we have to start somewhere!