Thanks LostandLonely41. I know I can't depend on him for my happiness, I just wish I could see him as something to start from lately. He's been so wrapped up in his game that he's just ignored his portion of the chores so I feel like my house is gross, which continues to bring me down. I feel like I should clean it but then he'll just continue leaving messes everywhere like a child.

Our walk didn't happen either today. Its supposed to happen tomorrow but I don't know. I slept most of the day instead to avoid this empty feeling. But now I'll probably be up all night.