So sorry you are feeling so low, googley. You do know, I think, that you are being totally irrational in thinking that--you are just really down right now. I have been pretty low at times, myself and I get feelings like that then. Do try to do something nice for yourself, to help you feel a bit better perhaps, till this passes. Maybe take a hot shower or bubble bath, or a walk outside to get some fresh air. Then maybe curl up under a warm comforter and take a nap. Do take some big, deep breaths and let yourself relax. Hugs to you, and my best wishes that you will feel better soon!