I totally agree. I had to look at who poated this thread thinking that I may have posted it in my sleep. I don't understand why my T wastes her time on me. I feel like I am failing therapy because I feel like by now I should be "healed". I am really fighting myself to not quit right now because of all of these feelings. I have 2 sessions per week and feel if I stopped then maybe she could help 2 different people.
I have no advice on how to get out of these thoughts except to keep pushing. Everyone says to talk about it with T but that makes me want to push away further. I never imagined therapy to be so hard.