The normal periods between your depressive episodes may be your "manias". It can be very subtle. That is how it is usually with me. I was dx'd depression for over 9 years before changing about a year ago. The cycling itself, really is the key, I think.

Mood stabilizers are like any other medicine in that they carry the potential for side effects. I'm taking plain old lithium carbonate and doing fine, though. A lot of people don't like it because you feel "slow" at first, but that goes away. Some folks are scared of Lamictal because it can cause a serious rash, but that is rare. I know several people whose lives have been radically improved by that one.

I guess I hate to see someone go through what I have for so long. Just food for thought! I hope you're doing great today!

DJ